My suggestions is sitting down, think and trying to answer everything about your ideal life is difficult, so here are some tips and guiding questions to get you started.
Focus on experiences you had as advantages
Plan an Ideal Week with beneficial things
Focus on your target and what you wanna do
Plan your goals how to make it work
Leave negativity and focus on positive parts only
If you have any ideas or opinions may drop your comments and questions, would gladly love to answer them.